Half-Nekkid Goodbye Kitty
Well, I've always been an admirer of Osbasso and all the people brave enough to join him each week in doing HNT posts, but I've always been hesitant to post any photos of myself because 1) I have been trying to overcome lots of body image issues and haven't wanted people to focus on or provide assessments of my body, and 2) I'm probably unduly paranoid about protecting my anonymity. However, lately I've been doing an ongoing project for myself as my body transforms from one shape to another. The goal is to learn how to fall back in love with my body and accept it in its many forms. More specifically, as I've been losing weight, I've been documenting it through photos--taking pretty pictures of it in all its stages so I can remember what it was like and confirm for myself that my body is and was always appealing in all of its various incarnations.
I took a few that I liked for the series last week when I was staying in a hotel. And since it seems like lately barely anyone is reading anyway, I figure no one will probably actually even see this HNT, so what the hell.
The following are shots of me late at night in clothes that no longer fit, documenting a transition in body and mind. It's a fond farewell to my absolutely favorite Hello Kitty t-shirt, which is now swimming on me and which I need to (sob) retire. This shirt was one of the few things that made me feel attractive while I was fat. And also, to add to the image, a matching set of retro cotton panties (I love the look of retro Sears catalog panties) that I've also gotten too small for. These clothes were soft and comfortable and made me feel safe and cared for and pretty during some really hard times. I'll miss them, but it's time to say goodbye. Now that I've shown them some photographic love, I am ready to let them go.
So, below the cut, two more from my "Goodbye, Hello Kitty" series.
(Biting my lip nervously as I hit "post.")