Finding Pleasure In
I've often used this blog to help me work through some of the more difficult issues I've been struggling with, and as a result I sometimes forget it can also be used to report happy things and positive progress. Since I'm delighted (and often wide-eyed and amazed) to report that positivity seems to be ruling my day most of the time now, I'm going to try to start sharing some of those things more. I think it's important, not only for me to get used to acknowledging that it's okay--and safe--to be publicly happy that I'm happy, but also to demonstrate to those who may have been following my blog who have their own struggles (and who doesn't?), or who come upon it later, to find some kind of narrative of change. Or, more concisely: I want people who come here to be able to see not only what was my dark tunnel, but that there IS actually light at the end of said tunnel, and what that light is like (for me personally, at least).
Because people, it's so really, really good. It's like getting to step into a shower where sunlight pours out of the tap, and just drenches you, warm and bright, running all over your body. And you get to turn around and face the tap and let it cascade down, all over your smiling face. And the tap never runs dry. Never.
I want to say: I'm starting to feel this.
I want to say: This kind of thing is actually possible.
I want to say: You can have this.
So, the topic for the week: pleasure.

Comments (7)
Shift over, Syl, 'cause I AM COMING IN THE HAPPY SHOWER WITH YOU! Oh yes. I shall bring my giant loofah.
1. Posted by Nikki on December 12, 2007
Baby, you can join me in my pleasure shower any time you want--with or without the giant loofah.
But especially with.
2. Posted by Miss Syl on December 12, 2007
My huge pleasure this week was making roast beef with mashed potatoes and gravy. A proper gravy made from drippings. I love roast beast, especially when it's cloudy and cold and rainy out.
3. Posted by Hiromi on December 13, 2007
P.S. Henceforth, thus, heretofore and in regards to a prior consultation...a public and heartfelt thank you.
4. Posted by Ronan on December 13, 2007
Hiromi: That sounds really good, and I don't even eat beef. It's funny how weather can influence what we want to eat. When it's cold and gray and snowy out, I always crave grilled cheese and tomato soup, for instance.
Ronan: Henceforth, thus, heretofore...
Heffalump. Hovercraft. Hucklebuck. Hmmmmuffin.
5. Posted by Miss Syl on December 13, 2007
Yay pleasure! I love the shower metaphor. Lately for me, the shower has become a private place to cry, but I'd like things to be otherwise, and that suggests I still have some hope.
Thanks for the update. I worry about you sometimes.
6. Posted by Mu Ling on December 16, 2007
Oh, don't worry! The lack of writing is generally almost always a good thing, not a bad one. It seems I write more when I'm struggling. Helps me sort through things when they're mish-mashing in my head too much for too long.
But I may start rectifying that. It's nice to be able to write positive stuff, too. But oddly, it's harder.
7. Posted by Miss Syl on December 16, 2007